March 2006


I’m back from my venture up to see mi familia in Indianapolis. As previously reported Adam and Becca’s apartment is really nice. Two thumbs up to them for living by a cool fountain. I stayed with them the first night, but I’ve already written about that. The next day (that would be Thursday) we went to Adam’s office. He took some x-rays of me and, in addition to my extra bone discovered a few weeks ago, I found out I’m even more deformed!!! two of the bones in my neck are fused together, my neck is completely straight when there is suppose to be a slight curve, and my tailbone curves the totally opposite way than it’s suppose to. cool huh? None of it’s really bad, and I was born that way. They could fix my straight neck to get the curve back, but they would need to see me three times a week, and obviously i can’t travel up there that often. So, oh well. Adam showed my x-rays to the other doctor he works with, and he was like “oh my gosh you’re a freak!!” he was just kidding though. He was really funny. We went there while they were on lunch break, so they weren’t seeing any patients then, and he had his shoes off and stuff. it was funny. But it was a really nice place. They also did this thing called Matrix to me and Becca, where they suction these things on your back and then it kind of massages you, it sends impulses to the nerves and stuff. It was really cool. Plus I got my back adjusted and that’s always nice :) After we left, me and Becca went to Starbucks and Old Time Pottery. thennn shortly after I had a fun time driving through traffic to get to Eric’s house and finally met his girlfriend, Jamie. She was pretty nice. She’s a full-time model. We all (me, Eric, Adam, Becca & Jamie) ended up going out to eat at LoneStar Steakhouse, then I went back to Eric’s to stay the night. We watched The Wedding Crashers. Woke up this morning, ate (a late)breakfast and came home.

the view from their back porch

me and Becca with the infamous cube steak. “You’re supposed to cook it in the oven!”

Eric likes to take pictures while he drives. we were driving down the interstate. at night.

classic “Eric Face”

I stopped off at North Vernon and went to the cemetary on my way home. I havent been there in awhile… because Christmas it was snowy and too dark by the time I left. It was hard. I don’t like it, and i have a lot of held in, built up feelings about it. it was also the first time I’ve been there since my Grandma has been there. That sucks too. But I’m glad I went. I MISS MY DADDY!!:(

I made it to Indy. Adam and Becca’s apartment is really nice. Becca was making cube steak for dinner but it took longer than she thought and kinda messed up (oops), so we ended up going to Taco Bell once adam got home from work. Then we had to go to Best Buy because becca’s VCR/DVD combo blew up during a power surge and she couldnt record her favorite shows. Then we watched American Idol. First time i’ve watched it all year, so I didn’t even know who was on it. Tomorrow after adam goes to work me and Becca are going there to get our backs adjusted..!!! yay! :) then i’ll see eric when he gets off work and finally meet his new girlfriend Jamie. should be fun. hope everything is well back home :)

FIRST BEST FRIEND: probably Meagan McCarty, everyone thought we were twins

FIRST SCHOOL: NHES

FIRST CELL PHONE: umm..what do you wanna know? It was tiny and I thought it was cool because the backlight was blue

FIRST FUNERAL: my cousin Carrie, I was 4 so I don’t really remember it but she was 16

FIRST PET: my cat Scuffy, I still have him too

FIRST BIG TRIP: ummm we went to Florida when I was 2, I don’t really remember it though

FIRST JOB: the nursing home

EVERYONE HAS THEIR LASTS

LAST PERSON YOU HUGGED: my mom

LAST CAR RIDE: driving home from getting my oil changed

LAST TIME YOU CRIED?: yesterday

LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED?: a lifetime movie called Widow on the Hill

LAST FOOD YOU ATE?: poptarts

LAST SHIRT WORN: i’m wearing a blue and gray striped shirt

LAST PHONE CALL: my brother Adam

LAST THING YOU TOUCHED: the keyboard?

LAST TIME AT THE MALL: hmmm…I dont remember

LAST TIME YOU WERE EXCITED FOR SOMETHING: i dunno, is that sad? yeah it is

LAST PERSON YOU SAW: my mom

LAST THING YOU DRANK: milk

LAST TIME YOU WERE REALLY HONESTLY HAPPY: *thinks* maybe Monday, I don’t really know

Today has been about as boring as a day of spring break could be.

But, I have recently rekindled my love for Creme Soda with a 58 cent two-liter from Meijer and found great joy in making homemade strawberry smoothies.

annnd since today was so boring, I was able to get most of my computer class homework done. I had a lab, three sets of questions (20 questions each) and an exam to do. All due Sunday. I did most of the lab except for a part my computer wouldn’t let me do, all of the questions and some of the exam. Pretty productive I say.

And me and my mom went for a walk on our street and went through some houses they are building.

Tobey came too

Tomorrow should prove to be much more eventful though. I’ll be driving up to Indy to see my two favorite brothers!!!

yeah, i only have two brothers, but they are still my favorite:)

get car checked
• finish homework
clean room
• work on church website
upload pictures and charge battery
call Union
apply to Union
• request college transcript
• request high school transcript
get FAFSA pin #
• make dermatologist appt.

I hate the way it is. I hate the way I feel.
But I have goals now and I am going to try to reach them.
And I’m going to be ok with knowing that it’s ok to fail.
I need to get plan for my life and actually go for it.
My heart aches with hopes of things I can never have.
I hate being so close but so far.
Maybe hate is too strong of a word, but I don’t know…
I hate crying myself to sleep every night.
I want just one day where I feel completely rested.
And happy the whole time. A good start and a good finish.
Just genuinely Happy.

To document the first day of spring, and very spring-like weather, my mom and I decided to take some photos. Aren’t they cool?…literally!











I took them all except the ones of me.

It’s been awhile since I wrote anything… haven’t really been much busier than normal, just haven’t really felt like writing much I guess.

I updated my picture website… you now have to register to view the full size of the photos, but don’t worry it doesn’t cost anything :-p

I went to Georgie’s birthday party on Friday which was a lot of fun, but what else would you expect?? :-D


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Spring break is next week and I think I’m going up to Indy to visit mi familia :)

I hung out with Kristen today, which was cool… it doesn’t even seem like she’s been gone that long… crazy.

I think I’m done writing one-sentence summaries of my life.

Goodnight LJer’s.

Aww. I just talked to Becca (my brother’s fiance) for like 20 minutes. She’s so nice :-D I hadn’t talked to her since… before Christmas. I guess at Adam’s graduation. They’re moving to Indy too, so both of my brothers will be in Indy, along with my cousin Brad. So now I can just travel up to Indy and see everyone! anywho…Adam & Becca are moving to Indy at the end of the month so we talked about me going up there on spring break to help them move and see their place. that would be fun. and hopefully she gets the bridesmaids dresses soon. :-p

March seems to be a good month as far as seeing all my family goes. I get to see Alyssa next week, Eric, Adam & Becca and hopefully Brad and Meredith at the end of March. that makes me happy.

How many keys are on your keychain?: 3

Do you own an iPod?: why yes, yes I sure do

Who on your Myspace “Top 8″ do you talk to the most?: umm…*thinks who is on top 8*..probably Kristen or Eric

What time is your alarm clock set for?: It differs from day to day, usually around 8 but I am usually awake before then

How many suitcases do you own?: hmm..I’m not sure

Do you wear flip-flops even when it’s cold outside?: No

Where do you buy your groceries from?: Meijer

Would you rather take the picture or be in the picture?: usually I’d rather be in it but it depends lol

What was the last movie you watched?: hmm…Singing in the Rain

Do any of your friends have children?: yes

If you won the lottery, what’s the first thing you would buy?: hmm…I dunno. I’d travel for sure

Has anyone ever called you lazy?: Yep

Do you ever take medication to help you fall asleep faster?: nope

What CD is currently in your CD player?: nothing

Do you prefer regular or chocolate milk?: depends…for just drinking I prefer chocolate

Has anyone told you a secret this week?: i don’t know

What did you have for dinner?: yesterday I had chicken

Do you wear hoodies often?: not really..I use to wear one every day

Can you whistle?: yeah I sho can

Have you ever participated in a protest?: nope

Who was the last person to call you?: my favoritest cousin! well actually it was a text message

What is your favorite ride at an amusement park?: Roller coasters

Do you think people talk about you behind your back?: probably, I don’t really care

Did you watch cartoons as a child?: yes sir-ee

How many siblings do you have?: 2

What is your biggest regret?: stuff

Have you ever had Jamba Juice?: I don’t think so

When was the last time you laughed so hard your sides hurt?: I dont remember…I love laughing though, I should do it more often

What movie do you know every line to?: I use to have Beauty and the Beast memorized when I was like 6

Do you own any band t-shirts?: yup

When was your last plane ride?: last year when I went to Mexico

How many chairs are at your dining room table?: I think 4, but you know I have never eaten at that table… odd

What is your favorite salad dressing?: french or ranch

Do you read for fun?: I am now! shocking I know

Can you speak any languages other than English?: a teensy-weensy bit of Spanish..I wish I could. I wish i knew like 5 languages, that would be sweet

Do you do your own dishes?: we have a dishwasher

What color is your bedroom painted?: A beige color

Have you ever cried in public?: Yeah

Do you have a desktop computer or a laptop?: desktop

Which do you make- wishes or plans?: both…I need to stop spending so much time wishing and planning and start making things happen though

Are you always trying to learn new things?: not as much as I should

Do you shower on a daily basis?: heck yes! smelly=bad

Are you currently wanting any piercings or tattoos?: nope

Can you skip rocks?: No

Have you ever been to Jamaica?: No

What to snack on at the movie theatres?: Popcorn! with all the butta!

Who was your favorite teacher?: Ms.Brewer! Mrs Shickel my first grade teacher.

Have you ever dated someone out of your race?: nope

What is the weather like?: rainy

Do you have an online journal?: umm….yeah

What was your favorite class in high school?: probably anatomy over-all but it varied year to year

Do you enjoy travelling via airplanes?: yup, especially first class…ESPECIALLY when it’s free lol

What personality trait is a must have in the opposite sex?: sense of humor

When was the last time you slept on the floor?: Don’t remember

Does your closest Starbucks have a drive-thru?: nope

What is your mother's hometown?: the big N.V.

How many hours of sleep do you need to function?: to function? like 4 or 5 but to function properly i need like 12…haha no, like 8.

Do you eat breakfast daily?: i try to

What was the last thing to scare you?: I don’t remember

Are your days full and fast-paced?: they should be

Did you ever get in trouble for talking in class?: yep..not a lot though. Usually with Kristen in Myers’ class

What is your favorite fruit?: strawberries!

Do you pay attention to calories on the back of packages?: no not really

Are you picky about spelling and grammar?: sometimes…

Do you believe in life on other planets?: I don’t know

Have you ever been to Six Flags?: yes

Who was the last person to piss you off?: n/a

What was the last thing you ate?: a bowl of cereal, but I just ate the cereal, not the bowl

What did you dress up as for your first Halloween?: nothing this year

How did your parents pick your name?: i think my dad picked it, because Lynn is his middle name

Do you like mustard?: no

Would you ever sky dive?: yes!! i want to!

Do you sleep on your side, tummy, or back?: i flip a lot but usually my side or tummy, I cant fall asleep on my back

Have you ever bid for something on ebay?: yup

What do you think of Angelina Jolie being pregnant?: good for her?

Do you enjoy giving hugs?: to the right people

Would you consider yourself to be fashionable?: sure

Do you own a digital camera?: yuppers

What celebrities have you been compared to?: I don’t know

Who is your favorite Star Wars character?: don’t have one

Does it annoy you when someone says they’ll call but never do?: yeah

What books, if any, have made you cry?: Hmmm, I don’t remember

What are you allergic to?: nothing that I know of

Do you ever feel guilty after eating meat?: no

If you were born the opposite sex, what would your name have been?: Alexander James or something…I don’t remember exactly but they were going to call me AJ

I get to see my favoritest cousin next week!! yay!

I think I’m getting my eyes checked today.

I need to drive up to N.V.

I need to go to Indy. and soon.

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